Tuesday, April 16, 2013

It's Tuesday.

I went for a walk this morning.  Nothing spectacular there.  It's a nice day out.  Though it's kind of somewhere between cloudy and sunny, just enough to give you a headache if you don't wear sunglasses.

My husband and I are going over to his parents' house when he gets off work.  Not really looking forward to it.  I love his family, don't get me wrong, but we had to live with them for like 6 months and just moved out about a month ago.  So I've had my fill for the time being.

There's a coffee table next to my computer desk that is piled with things that either haven't found a place yet, or that need to be hung on the walls in yet to be decided places.  It's bothering me today because it just looks like a big pile of crap.  Some of it needs to go back to be put in storage, or just donated or something.  But it's so much stuff I just feel like there's nowhere to start.  We're still not even sure where we want to put most of the furniture, so we can't hang anything on the walls until that is decided.  But whatever, another day.

I made a huge pot of lentils last night.  I don't know what I was thinking.  I'm going to have to eat them for every meal so they don't go bad.  But on the up-side, I do love lentils.  And I don't make them smushy, so they taste good on salads.

Well, I should probably be a good wife and finish cleaning the house before my husband gets home. 

Monday, April 15, 2013

I want to RUN

I love running.  Lately, I've been getting really strong urges to go for runs after it gets dark.  It's pretty lame.  But a few times since being back I've managed to head out for a walk at an appropriate time.

Unfortunately, it never lasts very long.  Today, for instance, I got dressed, had a snack, grabbed a water, walked to the trail (only a few hundred feet away from my door), and felt so happy.  Not two minutes later, I got dizzy and just barely caught myself before passing out.  So I sat there for a bit until I felt safe, and got up and went on with it.  But within 30 seconds (or so it felt) of standing up, whatever it is in my lower back that has been making moving my right leg so impossible started making moving my right leg near impossible.

Fucking hell.  Can I not win?  20 minutes, that's all I want.  I'm so sick of trying to ride my bike.  I need to lose weight, but how am I ever going to do that if I can barely leave my house?  It's beautiful outside, and I'm stuck in here doing exercise videos from youtube traditionally reserved for shitty weather and when my brain hates me.

I guess I should at least be happy that I'm able to do the little I am.  Before moving here last month I didn't even really have the option to try and get out.

But still, fuck this.  I want to run.